miroir_elegance (![[info]](http://p-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} miroir_elegance) wrote,@ 2008-04-26 08:45:00 |
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That dream. Last night. It was mocking me, again! Giving me what I can only dream of, of course, making it feel real, because I could swear I felt it all, that I was inside the dream and not in my bed, but no, I had to wake up... again...
I cannot give details, not here, but one person must have a hint of what it was. If my mind keeps playing such tricks on me, I'll go insane.
Sure, it's amazing to have it happen and feel as if it's real, but the disappointment when you realize it's a dream... no. Never again. Please. It's torture.
And no, it's got nothing to do with me wanting to be fully male. It was something else. Something more important to me than being a real man, and you all know how important it is to me.
I cannot give details, not here, but one person must have a hint of what it was. If my mind keeps playing such tricks on me, I'll go insane.
Sure, it's amazing to have it happen and feel as if it's real, but the disappointment when you realize it's a dream... no. Never again. Please. It's torture.
And no, it's got nothing to do with me wanting to be fully male. It was something else. Something more important to me than being a real man, and you all know how important it is to me.
